01/19/01 - 12/25/08
RIP
I feel scattered, but my desk is organized! 
Posted by Battle Weary at 4:11 PM 7 comments
Yesterday was in interesting day. Started out average...get up way too early, go to Physio lecture still too early...sit through an hour of way too much info to learn. After lecture I went to the library with my lab partner to work on a graph that is due Monday. We ran into trouble and decided to go ask the Professor a question. So we go to his office and before we can ask him, he says he has a question for us, and we don't have to answer right now, but think about it and let hm know. He asked me and my lab partner both to TA next semester! How awesome is that?!?
Then a couple hours later in Poli Sci...my Professor tells me I don't really have to take the final if I don't want to. I can skip the final and still easily pass the class. However, I took it for a grade so I'll take the final.
Both of these are good...but it's weird, I still feel like a failure...or a fraud...or something.
S
Posted by Battle Weary at 6:02 PM 7 comments
Just a quick update...
We arrived at Raine's early yesterday afternoon. Hung out for the rest of the day and spent the night. We are now getting ready to head on further south. Will arrive at D's mom's in about 2 1/2 - 3 hours. There is no internet access there, so we won't be able to get online. Will head home Saturday. I'll post something saying we got home...if I remember!
In other news...for those who know what has been going on...We have returned, along with a bunch of others that we didn't know about (not a huge bunch). And we are safely back in the castle.
W
Posted by Battle Weary at 8:53 AM 5 comments
I haven't posted anythng for a long time so I guess I should do some sort of update.
School has been pretty intense. Last week I had two presentations and a major paper due. Pretty busy. I like it though...the school I mean. It feels different then the JC to me. The students are different. More serious about school? I'm not sure that is entirely true, but it seems that way. I think the students at the JC are serious too, but the goals are different...maybe that's it. At the JC it's all about certificates, graduating and going to work, or transferring. Where I am now it's all about getting into a good grad program, the GRE, and finding an internship. When I mention the DEMSN program (drect entry masters nursing), or having a double major, people don't look at me like I'm completely insane...only partially insane, due to the double major!
I like three of my classes and I hate the fourth. It kind of makes sense though because three of them are classes for my majors, and the fourth is a GE requirement. The GE one is where I find fellow students that seem to not really care about school. The class is about 80% freshmen, 15% sophomores...the rest juniors and seniors (all 6 of us!). The teacher talked about the breakdown of grades on the first midterm before he handed them back. He said that about 90% of the freshmen failed it, and about 75% of the sophomores did! All the juniors and seniors got an A or B. That was a pretty dramatic statement about how seriously people take the class.
As it stands right now, I have an A in three classes and I have an 87 in Physio...that's probably an A too though, because the teacher grades an a curve and the highest in the class is a 94.
I guess that's it.
S
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This is reposted for someone that was unable to view it the first time. New comments are fine tho!
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Found this on youtube. All I can say is "wow". In my opinion this was really well done...the best I've seen. Much better than my "imagine trying to sleep while there's a party in your house" analogy.
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Posted by Battle Weary at 6:51 PM 6 comments
Today was my first day of school. Interesting day. I like my prof for social psych. She's nice and seems excited about the topic...this is *almost* always a good thing in a prof! We had a "class activity"...one of those things that s designed to make you talk to everyone. It was supposed to go for about 20 minutes and then we were done for the day. Walking around talking to everyone and trying to find people that had written the same things on their index card as you did...bleck! Well...it was noisy...and no one heard the fire alarm going off! HAHAHAHA a fire drill on the first day of school! So we hand the prof our cards on the way out the door and then, very slowly, file down the stairs...from the third floor...with everyone else ahead of us and two floors below trying to get out the same doors.
So...the first day was pretty good. Only one class. Tomorrow I have two classes...then Friday I have the 4th.
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Posted by Battle Weary at 6:02 PM 8 comments
I haven't written in a while...haven't had much to say I guess. Really, haven't been around much...lots of "lost time". My summer is over! Wasn't it just May a couple days ago? Looking back on my blogs, it seems that there has been quite a bit going on. Might be for the best that I don't have knowledge of most of it.
School starts in five days. Amazing. Seems that someone or someones have been getting ready for that. Yesterday I got my books...but that is all I've done. However, my desk is clean...not a small job! Someone went and got the messenger/laptop bag I wanted. Someone got paper, ink cartridges for the printer, pens, and a note pad with the wires at the top instead of on the side...the kind I prefer...and it's pink. Someone also got a few new clothes. Nothing wild, but cute. Seems like a lot of consideration was put into the clothes too. Someone thought about the weather, what we all like, and colors. There's a new jacket...very lightweight spring/summer jacket. Material is like a cotton/linen blend. The sleeves roll up and have a snap to keep them up, the hood is detachable, and it's kind of a pinkish-salmon color. There's a new zip-up hoodie from the disney store. It's pastel pink, with (s)Tinkerbell on it. There are four new shirts, two short sleeve t-shirts, one is white with a design on it and the other is deep pink (raspberry?) with a design. Then two 3/4 sleeve shirts...one is solid teal (almost green) and the other is a deep pink thermal shirt, wth a design. There's one new pair of jeans and one pair of shorts. The shorts are longer, almost to the knees...that's good because I really HATE having the backs of my legs stick to a chair when I'm sitting in lecture. :P And there is one pair of shoes...one! Now you all know *I* did NOT do the shopping! They are pink and black Vans with a geisha girl silohuette on them...pretty nice. Anyways...someone put a lot of thought into the school clothes shopping...pretty much everything is something anyone of us would wear without complaining too much except maybe J...and the shoes ARE Vans...so he should be ok with that.
Oddly, I am not too nervous about school starting. It's a strange feeling. I'm kind of excited, and definitely looking forward to it. In the past, at the beginning of a semester, I would be a bundle of nerves. So full of anxiety that I could hardly do anything...the smallest thing would set off a panic attack. "Do I know what room my class is in? OMG!! I've only checked 6 times...I can't breath!" That's not happening this time. I don't know why, but I'm really glad it's not. Even with the number of units/credits I have, I'm not nervous. I'm registered for 15 units. One hard class, one class I'm not particularly interested in but is a requirment, and two classes in my major...Sociology. I've never taken so many units...the most I've taken was 14...last semester. Ok...that's really close to 15! I guess one more unit isn't that big of a deal.
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Posted by Battle Weary at 7:02 AM 5 comments
I've been sittin, playin Zuma, a game that is really awesome in case you aren't aware. And I've been thinkin....which just might be kinda dangerous.
I been thinkin bout how we as a system, and I, answer one simple question. That is, IF we answer it at all. It doesn't matter who asks the question; it makes us freeze and complete nonsense comes out of the mouth....or the fingers, as the case may be. I don't mean we can't be understood, the answer is perfectly intelligible...it's just usually crap. A couple days ago Raine was online for a minute or two and she asked "how ya doin?" What I said was "eh...you?" That's as close as I could come to what I really wanted to say. I wanted to say "I'm a wreck. I'm tryin really hard not to cut. I can't see my hands the way they really are. I really want to talk to someone and no one has been around and now I'm totally glad you are online because I'm going to burst if I don't say somethin to someone". None of that came out. And in fact, the conversation ended completely right after that. So there I was alone with all that again, wonderin why the heck I couldn't just say I need help, I'm not okay.
We do this with everyone...all of us in some way or another. Some avoid or evade, most notably A...she's really good at it. "Hey A, how ya doin?" A says "our kitty does weird things sometimes". And no matter how many times or differnt ways you ask, she's goin to talk about what she wants to talk about, or she leaves. J (the small one) shrugs and says she doesn't know. It's actually possible that she doesn't, but she could come up with a better answer. J (the male one) is always "fine", and I'm always "alright". Even when it's T askin...same result. I walk in there havin all these things I want to say and what comes out is "I'm alright". I want to say some of the things I didn't say to Raine, up above. I want to say that I think bout dyin way more then I think bout livin, that sometimes the only reason I don't do anythin bout that is cause others inside haven't agreed to it and I can't make that choice for a 4-year-old (for example). But I don't say these things, I say I'm alright...and then I act like I'm alright.
I don't know why this happens, I really wish I did.
L
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The service will be on August 1st...giving people who need to travel time to get here. Yes, that does include the mother...she's coming. Blah. She's staying 3 days. At least its a short time.
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Today we are seeing T...with D. Apparently she wants to ask T some questions. Having an extra sesson for that. Makes me nervous...not sure why, but it does.
S
Posted by Battle Weary at 12:12 PM 6 comments
Our Grandmother passed away last night.
We are sad.
That's all I have to say.
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Huge news on the Medicare mental health reimbursement front...
Medicare news
Posted by Battle Weary at 6:49 PM 3 comments
We have returned from our vacation...taken a little while to post though! We arrived home on Wednesday, 7/2, in the afternoon...got online just long enough to send an im to Raine to let her know we got home...that's all we did.
Well...about the vacation...we had a GREAT time!! So much fun. We took D to the train to head south to her mom's house on Friday, 7/27...then got gas and ice and headed back to Raine's where we packed up the car then headed out. It was smoky as hell! At about the half-way mark we stopped to let Charlie (puppy) walk around, to hopefully prevent carsickness (he didn't get sick). I tried to call diana during that time but there is no signal there...bummer. A little past that I got a voicemail but couldn't check it because the signal wasn't good enough. So we get to the town about 10 miles from our destination and stop again for Charlie. At this point I have a good signal and pick-up my voicemail...it's S-girl wondering where we are! So I call her and tell her our location and she's excited...I think...she sounded excited anyways. We arrive about 30 minutes later, do the "omg it's good to see you" thing...then set up our tent, shove our stuff in it, pull out the cooler and other food, then head down to the lake. We spent the afternoon at the lake. The exact spot in the picture from the previous post. J decided to go out on the tube )towed by the boat) with S-girl...first time ever...and we don't swim...at least not well! Don't worry...life vest is required. No one fell off!! Amazing because the next day when S-girl went she/they flew off 3 times...and I do mean FLEW off!
Let's see...what else did we do...
We had some great foil/hobo dinners. The first night, terriaki glazed cheicken breats and pineapple, the second night, hickory marinated chicken breasts and butternut squash. Foil/hobo dinners are where you wrap your meat and veggies in foil and then they are cooked in the fire...literally...the wrapped foils are put in the coals and cook there. The third night everyone had arrived from H's family...we did the big family dinner. It's burritos...everyone brings an ingredient to share...we brought salsa and chips.
We spent every day at the lake...got very tan...VERY! Even with sunscreen. We did a lot of walking, alot of playing in the water, a lot of being out on the boat. One try at tubing alone. There were a lot of wakes from other boats and we got a huge wake in the face which scared little J and we stopped. The last day, in the morning, we went down to the lake and went all the way around the lake on the tube with one of H's sisters...it was great. We didn't go nearly as fast as when we went with S-girl, but that was perfectly fine with us. Our plan is to learn to swim before next year so we won't be so scared so easily. We are fully aware that the life vest will keep us from sinking, but there is still too much anxiety for it to be fun...at least out there alone. With S-girl it was fun...it was fun with E also, and she kept talking the whole time which really eased the anxiety. We also spent a lot of time not sleeping very well...but that was because the ground was too hard...next year, blow up mattresses!
So we had a blast! Next year D is coming too.
Warrier
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This doesn't really apply to anything going on right now...just thought it was really funny and cute!
Posted by Battle Weary at 6:12 PM 6 comments
Found this on youtube. All I can say is "wow". In my opinion this was really well done...the best I've seen. Much better than my "imagine trying to sleep while there's a party in your house" analogy.
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I'm shouting out a huge CONGRATULATIONS and "YOU ROCK WOMAN!" to S-Girl...who will be graduating in about 48 minutes! Can you believe a 7 am graduation!?! Wow.
I will be graduating tomorrow morning (not as early as S-girl!).
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The parents arrived on Wednesday afternoon. We had dinner at a Thai place that D and I love last night. Today, they are picking me up at 9 am "to go shopping"...apparently for my graduation gift, and they won't say where we are going or what I am going to be looking for. I feel somewhat uneasy about going shopping with them alone, but D can't go because L (my neighbor) ordered something that is going to be delivered sometime today and has to go in the fridge right away...so someone has to be home. Also, my Aunt B is arriving today, she called last night from a town about 2 hours away and said she would be heading here in the morning. She most likely will be here before I get back...so someone needs to be home for her too.
Raine arrives late this afternoon, early evening. So tonight I will have a house full! Not that we don't have one normally...but there will be actual extra bodies! Actually...it will be a house full until Tuesday morning when Raine heads back home...B may be here until Wednesday, but at least until Tuesday.
Things are going pretty well I guess. I don't feel very happy, but maybe that will come after everything is over.
S
Posted by Battle Weary at 6:35 AM 5 comments
Today is the start of finals week. I actually already had a final last Friday...for English class...it was really cool to do it then instead of the day before graduation! Today I am taking the Speech final. It's actually scheduled for Wednesday at 10, but I have the Statistics final that day from 7-9:45, so my speech teacher offered to let me sit the final with her other speech class. I snapped up that offer! This is probably the easiest final of the four and I am really looking forward to having it behind me so I can concentrate on Statistics and Chemistry. Going into Chemistry I am doing ok...I have a solid B in the class, it's possible to get an A if I do really well on the final, but I am not doing well in Statistics so I really need to concentrate on that. Any positive stats juju would be appreciated!
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In other news...
We are waiting for the determination of D's temp. state disability. The claim was received 5/9 and they say "please allow up to 14 days for processing". So any day now? Hopefully it will be very soon because we really need some more income...SSDI does not support one person, let alone two and 3 cats! REALLY, it doesn't. There is also the issue that I am going to have company very soon. Raine and my Aunt will both be staying here for a few days (for my graduation)...I'd really like to be able to get some new towels because the ones I have, while once very nice, are now kind of old and falling apart! There are a few other things I'd like to do around the house, but they aren't as important as that. Although I do think having appropriate food for my guests is kind of important...even if it's just a little food. My Aunt is a vegetarian and I'm not sure about Raine's needs now that her food needs have changed. Anyways...good money juju would be appreciated too!
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Graduation is in 5 days...I'm excited, and sad, and overwhelmed, and giddy, and scared, and, and, and... you get the idea. Last Thursday I went to get my cap and gown and found out I am graduating with honors! I didn't know I was...I thought my C in Anatomy dropped my GPA below the mark needed. Apparently it didn't. So I will be wearing a bright gold, satin stole on graduation day! Such a huge difference from when I was dropping out every semester.
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Posted by Battle Weary at 7:44 AM 8 comments
Just watched the documentary "The Bridge" with D...probably not a wise decision.
*sigh*
S
Posted by Battle Weary at 6:32 PM 2 comments
This is kind of funny!
I belong in the year I was born!
| You Belong in 1969 |
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This is a post that was done last year. This is how we still feel, so we are re-posting it.
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Things are getting down to the wire now. Tomorrow I have the last Statistics quiz and give my last speech. Next week I have an exam in Chemistry. Then the following week I have two finals on Wednesday, one on Thursday and one on Friday...then graduate on Saturday! Holy cow! I'm going to crash afterwards...I just know it.
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Posted by Battle Weary at 5:32 PM 8 comments
Yesterday I spent the day at orientation at theUniversity I am transfering to. One of my classmates is transferring also and she was attending orientation as well, so I had someone to hang with most of the day. We had to separate when it was time to go to our respective departments, but then we re-connected after. Some of the day was a bit boring...but a lot of it was fun.
I had declared two majors, but somehow, only one showed up on my paperwork at registration...pre-nursing. So when it was time to go to the departments for advising, I was expected to go to the nursing department and then go to the Sociology department afterwards, if there was time. There wasn't time. This actually turned out to be a bit of a problem. I did get some good information at the nursing department though. I am changing my plans a little! The JC lies!! Apparently alot...because my friend had some problems too. I was told that pre-nursing majors get preferrence to the nursing program at the University...they do not. There are on average, 300 applicants each year, and only 30 people accepted. The requirement for core science GPA is 3.00...however, for the last four years, everyone who has been accepted has had a 3.8 (or higher)! I don't have that. I need to repeat Anatomy at the University...a C isn't good enough. After the advising session with the group (three of us), the advisor talked to me alone. She had a suggestion. Since I have a double major, her suggestion was to consider keeping my double major and finishing the nursing prerq's (and continue advising in the nursing department)...but concentrate on the Sociology and graduate with a Bachlor's in Sociology. THEN DO THE DIRECT ENTRY MASTER'S IN NURSING PROGRAM! This program is for people who have a Bachlor's in something other than nursing. The program is 18 months (as opposed to three years) and includes the RN licesure education and Master's level education...but no GE stuff...because that is already done. Hmmm...that sounds pretty good to me! It wouldn't take me any longer and I would have more options when graduating...for example...immediately entering the FNP post-graduate program...which is my biggest, I thought maybe unattainable, goal.
Ok...so I hook back up with my friend and we go get some food...there are SIX places to eat on campus! The JC has umm...none now...they demolished the cafeteria and are building a new one. The places are all different, have different atmospheres and different food...we went and peaked at them all then decided to go to "The Pub". Cute place...kind of set up like a sports bar only the tv screens had music videos playing instead of sports. A student told me that they televise University games live on the screens...that's pretty cool. The Pub has a big balcony with tables that overlooks the lake and wooded area of campus...very nice. One strange thing...they serve beer! No...neither of us had a beer. At the JC, having any alcohol, of any kind, anyplace other than the closed trunk of your car, opened or not...will get you expelled...no questions asked.
After lunch it was time to go to the computer lab to register for classes...so off we went. Found the lab with no problem and the line was HUGE!! This was ok though because apparently there was a problem with the registration process anyway and it was going to take about a half-hour to fix. So my friend and I went and got our student id's then just sat somewhere soaking up the sun (it was really nice out). We went back after about 45 minutes and everything was fixed. This is where things turned a little bad. My friend found the Physio class we both need before I did and added it...then when she went through the rest of the process, it said she didn't have the prereq done. Uh oh...the advisor helping in the lab sent her (and I, since she and I have taken the same classes as prereqs) to the Bio department to find out if we could get that "corrected" so we can register. Long story short...my friend and I are in Chem together now (she was told this particular Chem was the prereq...it's not), however, I had taken another Chem already...so she hasn't met the prereq, but I have. To say she is upset is an understatement! I went back to the computer lab and registered for the Physio class with no problem (I hadn't tried yet)...then my problems began. I wanted Physio, Poli Sci, and two Soc classes...one of which is the prereq for all upper division Soc. I found it, selected it, went to the end of the process and...it said I hadn't met the prereq!! Freaked out a bit because the prereq was listed on my transferred classes (with an A no less), right in front of me! Then I saw it...additional prereq...must be a declared Sociology major to take this class. Crap...I didn't get to go to that advising session, the major didn't show up on my "stuff"...I had a form that needs to be signed by the department chair to add Soc as a 2nd major...and it is now 4 pm. Just great. Sooo...I went to the Soc department hoping that it might be possible to still see the department chair...it wasn't. However, the department secretary was there and she talked to me a bit then one of the professors (not the chair) walked by and the secretary called her over. I got a lot of advice/directions. The professor showed me four upper division Soc classes that do not have the the class I couldn't get as a prereq. Her advice was to grab a couple of those classes...they will double count as upper division GE (I need 9 units of that) and towards the Soc major. Then to come to open office hours on Monday (they are well after I get out of class) and talk to the chair then...and bring my transcripts with the Soc classes I have had highlighted for her. I can get the form signed then and get it submitted...it will take a while to get entered into the computer anyway, so I won't be able to take the class I need until the spring...but I still have two other upper division classes that I can take concurently in the spring. So...much relieved I left.
And now I am an officially registered junior at the University. 15 unites in the Fall...that's only four classes by the way...three of them are 4 unit classes. I don't know yet how my friend faired...she will either text me or let me know on Tuesday when I see her in Chem.
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Posted by Battle Weary at 8:04 AM 7 comments
Having a little trouble not being overwhelmed right now. That's all I have to say.
S
Posted by Battle Weary at 7:31 PM 3 comments
Things are very up and down right now. Bad stuff, good stuff, bad stuff, good stuff, bad stuff...since the last round was bad, something good should be coming my way next, right? :P
The latest on the transfer front is...I got 2 grants that together cover all but $43 of tuition for the next school year, I have an interview for a $2000 scholarship on 5/2, today in the mail I received a letter saying that I got a $1000 scholarship that I applied for and I also have an offer of student loans (which I can turn down up to 30 days after they are disbursed, at the end of Aug).
On the partner front...the final word was received, charges will not be pressed, the GP has ordered a bunch of lab work and is working on an authorization for a recovery program, it looks like she may be able to get unemployment, and she has been to 3 meetings since Wednesday.
I won't go into the bad right now.
S
Posted by Battle Weary at 7:13 PM 6 comments
Well, I am having trouble getting the template I want on here...blogger issue I think, but whatever the problem is, it isn't working. Anyway...this is the new public blog. It will be looking better sometime in the future. I don't know how soon, but eventually it will look better.
Welcome to all that have come over!
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